My new job
18 november 2016 - Shanghai, China
Day 101 and 102 - Crushed my Comfortzone
Most of you probably already read this on facebook: I joined my first Comfort Zone Crushers meeting. As you might guess, a big part of this is doing challenges to step out of you comfort zone. This is also called exposure and helps you to care less about what other people think of you.
So I did my first challenge: I lied down in the middle of the People's Square subwaystation! Of course I felt very uncomfortable, but after not even a minute a guy came to ask me what was happening. And he wanted my Wechat. So I explained the concept and told him 'You'll get my Wechat if you lie down next to me'. His answer was 'I'm too shy'. My answer was 'Me too'. So he did it anyway and now we're Wechat-friends ^^ Amazing! Thanks for lying down with me :)
I'm starting to realize more and more that (most of the time unconsciously) I do or don't do things because of what other people might think. I'm not even talking about the big things in life, but for example: Once I sit down somewhere in the park and I think another place would be more comfortable, I'm not changing places because other people might wonder what's going on. I want to drink three cups of coffee but the waitress maybe thinks it's a lot so I don't order the third one. I want to meditate this evening but because some other people may find it strange I tell them I'm studying. I don't turn on a cheesy song I really like because others probably won't like it. These are just examples and it happens thousands of times every day. This means I'm actually hiding a big part of my true self.. Now I realize I'm starting to care less and nothing bad happens if I just do whatever I feel like doing. Except it saves me a lot of energy and makes me happier :)
Day 103
The salesteam approved of my democlass, which is positive! My colleagues are all really nice, I can consider myself a lucky girl working in a place like this. In the evening I moved to an Airbnb apartment, where I have a private room (after weeks of sharing my bedroom with 5 to 7 others). It's heaven! I got a bottle of wine, turned on some feelgood tunes, and just enjoyed my evening in my new room <3
Day 104
I did some grocery-shopping since I'm staying in this apartment for a week :) Then I Iied down in the park to enjoy the sun and get my vitamin D. I prepared a little for my real first democlass tomorrow, but can't seem to get it into my head. So nothing to do but wait and see what happens ;) For the past few days I've been feeling so good. Happy. Free.
I decided to get rid of all my possessions which I left in my moms place. I don't even feel for 1% that I'll still need all of those things in my life and why not get rid of all the things you don't even feel attached to anymore? :) I now just own my 35 liter backpack and never ever miss anything (except some people, but that's a whole different story ;)) Let's create some space!
Day 105
Oooo myyy goood, my first demo was the wooorst. Haha, I felt like it went terrible, there was crying involved and everything -_° (the children, not me). Most of hem weren't even 3 years old yet! But luckily all my colleagues assured me that they all experienced exactly the same thing and it will get better. Pfieuw!
After our very good teambuildingdinner me and some very nice colleagues and friends went to a Servian party to drink some wine. During the day I felt a bit sick and in the night it became worse and worse.
Day 106
My second demo fortunately went so much better :) In the meantime I felt very sick and weak and after I threw up I went 'home' early. I'm so lucky with my colleagues, who are all very sweet and caring! I slept for 20 hours straight.
Day 107
Today I gained some strength every hour. I stayed in bed all day (except for the trip to the shower and supermarket to buy lots of fruits and tea). There was a lot of self pity and I felt homesick as well. I really start to miss my family and friends at this point :(
Day 108
The quiet day at school was very welcome. I was still tired, so I went to bed early and I didn't sleep well because of the nerves for my first real class tomorrow..
Day 109
Nerves, nerves, nerves.. Not so good for my recovering health.. But what do you do about it?! My first lesson went okay enough.. Not great, but it wasn't a disaster either. So I guess something to be proud of ;)
The evening brought me a Spanish dinner with my Spanish host, his friends and some wine. And I finally figured out a way to watch online movies in China. This day couldn't have been better!
Day 110
Today I had my second class, I was less nervous now :) It also went better. Chinese kids are so cute! Ten 4-year olds in a classroom makes the room temperature rise every time ;) I bought runningshoes, because the exhaustion at the end of every staircase doesn't feel like a good sign..
Day 111
Yess! I went running at Jiatong University! And although I caught some stares, I mostly got smiles, and I really really really enjoyed the running <3 I've been postponing the running because of those stares, but the webinar of Comfort Zone Crushers I watched this morning gave me the last push I needed. Thank youuuu! Now let's enjoy my free day
Most of you probably already read this on facebook: I joined my first Comfort Zone Crushers meeting. As you might guess, a big part of this is doing challenges to step out of you comfort zone. This is also called exposure and helps you to care less about what other people think of you.
So I did my first challenge: I lied down in the middle of the People's Square subwaystation! Of course I felt very uncomfortable, but after not even a minute a guy came to ask me what was happening. And he wanted my Wechat. So I explained the concept and told him 'You'll get my Wechat if you lie down next to me'. His answer was 'I'm too shy'. My answer was 'Me too'. So he did it anyway and now we're Wechat-friends ^^ Amazing! Thanks for lying down with me :)
I'm starting to realize more and more that (most of the time unconsciously) I do or don't do things because of what other people might think. I'm not even talking about the big things in life, but for example: Once I sit down somewhere in the park and I think another place would be more comfortable, I'm not changing places because other people might wonder what's going on. I want to drink three cups of coffee but the waitress maybe thinks it's a lot so I don't order the third one. I want to meditate this evening but because some other people may find it strange I tell them I'm studying. I don't turn on a cheesy song I really like because others probably won't like it. These are just examples and it happens thousands of times every day. This means I'm actually hiding a big part of my true self.. Now I realize I'm starting to care less and nothing bad happens if I just do whatever I feel like doing. Except it saves me a lot of energy and makes me happier :)
Day 103
The salesteam approved of my democlass, which is positive! My colleagues are all really nice, I can consider myself a lucky girl working in a place like this. In the evening I moved to an Airbnb apartment, where I have a private room (after weeks of sharing my bedroom with 5 to 7 others). It's heaven! I got a bottle of wine, turned on some feelgood tunes, and just enjoyed my evening in my new room <3
Day 104
I did some grocery-shopping since I'm staying in this apartment for a week :) Then I Iied down in the park to enjoy the sun and get my vitamin D. I prepared a little for my real first democlass tomorrow, but can't seem to get it into my head. So nothing to do but wait and see what happens ;) For the past few days I've been feeling so good. Happy. Free.
I decided to get rid of all my possessions which I left in my moms place. I don't even feel for 1% that I'll still need all of those things in my life and why not get rid of all the things you don't even feel attached to anymore? :) I now just own my 35 liter backpack and never ever miss anything (except some people, but that's a whole different story ;)) Let's create some space!
Day 105
Oooo myyy goood, my first demo was the wooorst. Haha, I felt like it went terrible, there was crying involved and everything -_° (the children, not me). Most of hem weren't even 3 years old yet! But luckily all my colleagues assured me that they all experienced exactly the same thing and it will get better. Pfieuw!
After our very good teambuildingdinner me and some very nice colleagues and friends went to a Servian party to drink some wine. During the day I felt a bit sick and in the night it became worse and worse.
Day 106
My second demo fortunately went so much better :) In the meantime I felt very sick and weak and after I threw up I went 'home' early. I'm so lucky with my colleagues, who are all very sweet and caring! I slept for 20 hours straight.
Day 107
Today I gained some strength every hour. I stayed in bed all day (except for the trip to the shower and supermarket to buy lots of fruits and tea). There was a lot of self pity and I felt homesick as well. I really start to miss my family and friends at this point :(
Day 108
The quiet day at school was very welcome. I was still tired, so I went to bed early and I didn't sleep well because of the nerves for my first real class tomorrow..
Day 109
Nerves, nerves, nerves.. Not so good for my recovering health.. But what do you do about it?! My first lesson went okay enough.. Not great, but it wasn't a disaster either. So I guess something to be proud of ;)
The evening brought me a Spanish dinner with my Spanish host, his friends and some wine. And I finally figured out a way to watch online movies in China. This day couldn't have been better!
Day 110
Today I had my second class, I was less nervous now :) It also went better. Chinese kids are so cute! Ten 4-year olds in a classroom makes the room temperature rise every time ;) I bought runningshoes, because the exhaustion at the end of every staircase doesn't feel like a good sign..
Day 111
Yess! I went running at Jiatong University! And although I caught some stares, I mostly got smiles, and I really really really enjoyed the running <3 I've been postponing the running because of those stares, but the webinar of Comfort Zone Crushers I watched this morning gave me the last push I needed. Thank youuuu! Now let's enjoy my free day
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